Today is the 31th day since you left me , I am really LOST cause i really don know what to do . Everyone is asking me to give up , but if loving someone is so easy to give up , it would not be love anymore . I know that there is no more love in you towards me , which made me very hurt ( cant do anything my fault after all ) . I also know that there is only him in you now , but i really don want you to be so sad everyday . I know that you are unhappy , but you cant do anything .


This seems abit funny ar ?While i am waiting for you , you are there waiting for him , what about him ? Giving you some dumb excuse that his goodfriends not liking you , if he has this kind of good friend right , what the point of them , good friends are suppose to understand each other and support each other when in trouble !


I am really sorry that i hurt you that much , really sorry . You know that i am rusty in relationship right ? I know that this does not mean much but i really love you alot . Me saying anything thing much now does not mean much but i really regreted , really regreted and i have change for you ! How i wish i have a time machine now ! So i could go back in time to make up all my mistakes ! You are seriously the only girl that made me love you so much , seriously so much !


Do you want i know when i started to know that i could not live without you ? Not the time that you broke up with me , but the time that i got back from malaysia ! When i was there i saw my ex , some feelings came back , but i told myself that i am already attacted to you and i cant do anything stupid and hurt anyone . When i was in the room by myself alot of things came into my mind ! One of the most important was you , cause i know that once i start loving a person , the person should really feel it . By then some images flown by , it was me and you holding our hand , walking beside a huge beautiful pond . After that i knee down and asked if you could marry me ! That was when i knew that you were the one , the one for me ! You made me love strawberries , but whenever i eat strawberries , i think of you which hurts alot !


JON ! how i wish your wish for me that time would came true ! i really wish that would come true !

In your 1 month anniversary, the letter you wrote to me was : I really hope we can last long . At times , i cant help but ask myself ,"did i make the right decision to agree to be with you ? I found my answers now .:D I did make the right choice .
I really hope that we last long too ! But i always srew things up ! I always do !

That day that we patch , i really did not want to lose you again . Your kiss which you gave me, felt like our first kiss, its surreal, heavenly.The kiss that i want , from no one but you . But after all i still srew up , srew up big time !

I really hope that you will give me one more chance , one and only last one ! I know that you are the one , only you !

"I love you, not for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. "


Roy Croft



You can never say never.

091009- Still deeply in love with you. <3

Today is a new year , i really hope that we can have a new start . I will just wait ba ! I don know why but for the pass 2 weeks and 1 day , everytime i go into youtube , i would accidentally click onto all the romance songs that is either the guy asking the girl to come back to him or the other way around , i don know if i god asking me to let you see all this song or what but i really need you back in my life !